| i cant help u fix urself but at least i can say ive tried im sorry but i gota move on w/ my own life |
[Jun. 7th, 2005|09:32 pm] |
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hey girls! sorry i haven't written in a few. i've had a lot happen. since children and youth won't let ella come back home yet i've been developing depression and so my evaluation at tri county is tomarrow at 12:45. watch them put me on medication. i guess i'll take it if they give me it just for ella's sake since i seem to do everything for her now because she's all that matters most to me. she's my little princess. so once i get the evaluation done and justin goes for his drug test that will determine when ella can finally come home again. well all that and our money situation since i havent had any income for myself since april 21st. so ella stays at my moms for now since that was the deal with children and youth. they also think its strange im sometimes afraid of ella because the way shes been breathing and sometimes choking. well wouldnt you be scared too? im only afraid she'll die and if that ever happens i think i would die. i just think its normal to feel that way since i am a new mother ya know. or maybe its just me. a fight broke out at my moms the other day between her and justins mom. the fighting better just stop cuz if children and youth finds out they will put ella in a foster home and i rather die than see that happen. and it wouldnt be my fault cuz anymore i have no say so in anything. people fight and i cant help it cuz no one listens to me when i say everyone should just get along. then me and justin started fighting cuz i said i'll fight for full custody and no one would see her if all this continues. so yeah a very stressful time here but im getting thru it all doing things my way. ella had to go to the doctors today for an emergency visit. she couldnt wait until her appointment on thursday. the doctor said she has acid reflux so she put her on medicine and i have to add rice cereal to her formula. if the vomiting and spit up and breathing funny keeps up she has to go for tests to see if she has some stomach disease. i hope she doesnt. i'll start crying. ella is supposed to be perfect. geo called me and asked how ella was doing. talked for about 5 minutes or so. it was nice to hear from him. he was my best friend then we went out for 3 months then he broke my heart but still he'll always remain one of my best friends even tho some people dont like it but hey he was always there in the end when all my other friends who i thought were true just disappeared. so the friends i have left are justin, geo, and ashley. they are my true friends. theres others but i dont know if they are true cuz i never hear from em even when i contact them. oh well life must go on. i'll be watching meet the barkers in a few minutes. i miss having cable. once i get back to work i'll have cable at my place. well i gotta go. i'll write soon. love you all. <3
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[May. 26th, 2005|11:38 pm] |
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hey girls! it's chrissy here. long time no write. i'm now living in archbald,pa on my own again...miss indedpendent. i had my daughter on may 9th at 3:54am. my water broke on mother's day while getting ready for bed at 10:15pm and so Justins mom had to take me to the hospital. i was only in labor for 3 1/2 hours with only an hour of pushing. i named her Ella Christin Hess. she was born at Moses Taylor Hospital weighing 7 pounds 10 ounces and measuring 19" long. she's so beautiful. she's my baby princess. she's also very strong and smart...doing things a 3 month old would do. she already held her bottle, giggling loud, following things with her eyes, rolling over, smiling, lifting her head up,ect. i love her so much. almost 4 more days till my 22nd birthday! happy birthday to me! <---now that's hott! wells gotta gos now. i'll write once again real soon. i love you. <3
xOxOx
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